I didn’t expect to be back in academia so soon. Neither a plan, nor a desire — but a deep-rooted need. — During the final days of 2021, I resigned from a safe and secure job in ecological consulting and committed to the uncertainties of becoming a university lecturer. I saw an opportunity, and in desperation I leapt towards it with everything in me. I realize that my identity is not an accessory item to be flashed and flaunted on que, but instead my identity shows up wherever I show up.